We met early in the 24th, and he was 46. I was attracted to him at first sight, because his appearance exudes the masculinity, dustyness and demeanor of a successful person.
As someone who often follows the call of reason, I feel like I have completely fallen before him and determined to be worthy of him, even though I know he has a happy family.
I plan to approach him, show him how pure and profound my sincerity and love for him are. I was confident in his beauty, youthfulness and understanding ability, and even though he initially avoided him, he gradually became attracted to me. Since then, we have had a rather closed relationship.
We have met more, and I feel that he spends more affection and time with both of us. I was pregnant, he became confused and didn't know how to handle it. But I was noble, saying that I didn't need to abandon my wife and children or demand status, all I needed was a promise from him that I would take care of my mother and children more. He was touched that I did not make things difficult, and agreed to keep my promise.
Instead of seeing each other 2-3 times a week, now he comes to me every week on working days except Sundays.
One day, his wife knew everything. She called me with a polite, elegant attitude that was completely different from the state of angry jealousy of many other couples. We arranged to meet at the cafe. She appeared with a luxurious style, and showed that she was educated by standard speech and behavior.
She shared that she knew he liked me sincerely, so she decided to divorce so that we could come together. She also said that although she was sad because her family was broken, she was originally independent in every aspect, her children were grown up and understood things, so the mother and daughter would live well and overcome this difficult period together.
She even worried me about my pregnancy but he couldn't take care of it, which would make me more miserable. Near the end of the conversation, she shared more about some of his interests and habits.
I was "shocked" because I didn't understand why she could calm down to meet and talk calmly with the "third person". The determined attitude to divorce and create an opportunity for us to get together made both he and I confused. As for him, he still maintains the attitude of not wanting the family to be separated but wants to try to maintain and have the duty to take care of my mother and children.
Now, I have absorbed and understood that living with a man whose heart is always turned towards another family is nothing more miserable. Although I get what I want in life, I still feel insecure and feel guilty towards you, towards your children with the consequences I have caused.
How should I resolve this so that everything is stable?
