There was no squealing sound of a familiar car parked in front of the gate at rush hour waiting to take her to eat the dish you like, even though he didn't like it at all. A cold feeling running along her back, not because of the monsoon, but because she suddenly realized: It seems like this time, I have really hurt him.
It was like she was so used to a smooth chair in a corner of the house that she took its presence for granted. She could throw her handbag up there, she could hastily pass by, until one day she was tired of taking her legs off, wanting to lower her back like usual, then suddenly saw that it was just an empty floor. The chair was moved away, without a single sound.
That is the time when there is a very feminine fear, appearing after women's mistakes in hand, or mistakes in mouth that hurt a good man. He's not perfect. He doesn't know how to say sweet things to pet your friend, but always stays when she's angry for no reason, when she needs someone just to spill the money.
Then one day, she hurt him. He stayed. Until another time, she still could not correct her favorite things when she said that he was so tired of her. I would have liked not to meet him.
He did not argue, did not explain, did not hold back but remained silent and withdrew. At that time, she kept ignoring it, but after many hours and a day, she started worrying. Continuously check if you are still online, see if the representative photo has been changed, see if you have posted any hidden status lines...
She began to recall all the details and realized: This man is being good to me... too much to allow.
Unconditional good is a very dangerous good. Because it has no warning. There is no threat. There is no "if you are like that, I will...". They just endure. If you endure too much, it will disappear.
She once thought: He wont go anywhere. But he took a gentle withdrawal, did not make a fuss, did not leave a regret. Just don't give her a chance to argue to show that you are still important.
She didn't know what to do, texted in advance, asked in advance for fear of being "squeezed", but kept it like that, worried that she would lose a good man unconditionally forever.
While she was struggling, her best friend learned about it and asked: "You are afraid of losing that guy or afraid of losing the feeling of being loved without trying. Just let me take you to meet this guy, he is better, richer and more patient than me before, if you curse him, I will keep quiet, but this guy's ears are a bit annoyed."
