The peak was a "huge" project that lasted for six months. The pressure was as heavy as a rock pressing on her chest. One late evening, when she looked at a bright screen with hundreds of error lines and complicated formulas, she felt like she had reached the limit of endurance. There were many nights when she put her head down on the keyboard, feeling exhausted, wanting to give up everything to relieve her head. She even hopes to have a good reason or some unexpected event that will make her leave her desk.
At that moment, her computer suddenly crashed and she felt a complete calmness, a state without any pressure, without any need to do anything. That was the absolute release that she had just prayed for.
But after taking a break for a day, the next evening, she sat on the top floor of a coffee shop, very chill to look far away and listen to the loud noises of the group of people next to her talking about unemployment, about economic difficulties... Suddenly, she suddenly realized that if she had completely escaped work, with these challenges, she would also lose her purpose, lose her pride in solving the problem, lose her connection with her colleagues and her life-saving income. The fear of facing a completely empty life, without goals, without any contributions, suddenly overwhelms the fatigue of work. When tired, you need breaks to " refresh" - refresh - yourself, not to give up.
She picked up the phone to call her IT- savvy younger brother to bring her computer to repair tomorrow morning, decided not to worry much anymore, after this project, let's do it well.
The next evening, when she sat at the table, pressing the source button and the familiar starting sound rang out again, dispelling the cold silence. The green screen appearing now no longer makes her feel tired but also makes her excited. And along with opening the project file, she played her familiar song: "Ta say it's not for the reason/ But for you, I love you so much so I forget, forget the way home, forget myself, only remember the eyes that are in me..." ( Saying a lifetime for you).
