Ngoc Chau has gone through many losses and major events in her life, but she did not let them sink her. Instead, she chose to face it, accept it and move forward, because she understood that living was the only way to get through everything.
The loss of her mother was a sudden pain, dragging Ngoc Chau into the spiral of loss, making her think she could not overcome it.
She spent a month and a half in her hometown, taking care of her mother's funeral arrangements before returning to the rotation of work. In the first days of returning to the city, she buryed her head in work so as not to have any more free time, working continuously for 15-16 hours a day to forget the feeling of emptiness.
But every time she returned home, facing the four cold walls, she realized that nothing could fill the pain flowing in her heart.
Every night, she quietly turns on her phone, reviews her mother's videos and photos, and yearns to see the word "Mommy" appear on the phone screen like before. But the reality cannot be changed, and that pain submerged Ngoc Chau for a month and a half, making her only know how to lie on the bed, crying until late in the morning before leaving.
In a moment that seemed unable to escape from her depression, she accidentally heard awife sermon: "When a relative passes away, especially a parent, they do not lose completely. They still exist in us, in every cell, every blood stream, just like we are the ones inheriting what they leave."
That statement was like a rope pulling her out of the chaos. Ngoc Chau realized that her mother was not far from her, she was still here, present in her smile, eyes, in every personality feature of her. If you had left, you might have gone to a better place, where your father was waiting. Her mother still follows Ngoc Chau's footsteps, hoping that she will live a happy life, true to the expectations she once had.
From that moment on, she no longer felt the pain as something that submerged her, but turned it into motivation to move forward. "That was when I felt the strongest," she shared. "Not when I hide my emotions, but when I dare to face the pain of losing my mother and accept it as part of the journey."
For Ngoc Chau, her mother's passing is not an end, but the beginning of a new journey - a journey in which she learned to be more tolerant, more accepting, and more appreciative of time. And she chose to continue living, not to forget, but to turn her mother's love into motivation on the journey ahead. Because she believes that her mother is always here, by her side, in every step of her journey.
