On the evening of June 10, after being officially discharged from the army with V, BTS leader RM (Kim Nam Joon) had a personal livestream to interact with fans.
In it, the male rapper shared about his life, especially the difficult time he spent while performing his military service.
RM shared that when he first enlisted in the army, people told him to take care of V (Kim Tae Hyung) because RM was older. But in reality, when each person is assigned to his own unit, V is the one who adapts better, even though he is in a more miserable unit. RM felt quite difficult with his military life.
RM confessed: "To be honest, military life is too much for me. Of course, spending a year and a half in the army is also a burden for everyone. But one of my biggest problems is sleep. This is the first time I have struggled with so much sleep."
The leader of BTS explained that he suffered from insomnia for various reasons, including the pressures and problems at HYBE.
I felt sleepy but couldnt sleep deeply. The facilities were not good, 20 soldiers slept together, all of which made it even more difficult for me to sleep.
I started to suffer from insomnia in May-May last year. Once, I didn't sleep for two consecutive nights, for about 72 or 78 hours. So I thought I would die. I thought I was living like a Japanese person and my spirit was not good, so I went to see a psychologist and had to take medicine.
I lay in bed for 3-4 hours looking up at the ceiling and could not sleep, it was like hell. So I was very afraid of the dark. Every time I have a day off, when I come home, I faint, RM specifically described his condition.
The psychologist told RM that his insomnia was due to military service, and things would be better when he was discharged.
"I received treatment and took sleeping pills for 1 year and 2 months. Now I can't stop taking medicine, but I'm better and continue my daily life. I am limiting my medication to gradually stop taking it completely.
My teammates all know about my condition, so they help and sympathize with me a lot. Since April this year, I have felt better. When I knew I was about to be discharged from the army, my spirit was more stable," RM added.
Notably, RM later mentioned the album Right Place, wrong Person - his personal album released in May 2024.
According to RM, "the insomnia incident happened before the release of the album "Right Place, wrong Person", at that time HYBE also had many incidents".
Album Right Place, wrong Person is all about me. I don't know what people think about the lyrics, but the album is about betrayal, love, friends, this industry and my attitude during that time," RM shared the difficulties he went through through through through his personal album.
The rapper admitted that he lost sleep and stress because he was too sensitive. RM has written military diaries, but half of them are stories about insomnia.
